Been staying busy...

Totally miss not being able to update you on the pug and me but we have been doing Great Lately.

You know the shirts and hats that say " Life is Good"......I can totally relate. There are a couple of curve balls that have been thrown but " No worries"....i have the worlds greatest brother and couldn't be more thankful for his words of encouragement....."in this lifetime" we experience a lot.

God allows us to go through things so that we can learn from them. God also shows us that he has a sense of humor and he needs a good laugh sometimes to. I am not saying this in any disrespectful way but I think that we all need the mood to lighten a little. things that I would never imagien happening have....and just when you thought that God hated you and wanted you to have a broken heart you eventually see that it was all in the way you interpreted it.

God loves us....he protects us, and he provides a life for us that he wants to see us live. SO, i gladly accept Gods help in this life and I know in turn he will forever watch over me.

Today, i saw and heard the saddest news "of a life" that I was taking care of at the hospital. Imagine hearing that you will be dead 6 months from now.....imagine that......you dont expect it and you get the worst diagnosis of your life. The worst.....you are left alone with the expected future that you have no control over. You are this person with no hope and all alone......How would you live from that moment on....who would you be....would you be bitter....would you laugh.....would you cry.....I saw all that in one day.....And i think about life and my life that God has given me and I couldn't be more blessed. For all the sorrow, confusing times, rediculous things that can happen....i am thankful for mine.

This week I have seen people living in extreme poverty, filthy conditions, and I wonder if they think that this is all there is to life. Some people are just hard to explain....but when I look at it I think of my beginning. The trailor on connecticut hill, the trailor in king ferry, the house being built in king ferry......the memories......of what life was like. How we were stereotyped and how I was embarrassed about living poor. BUT......the big thing is this. Our home, was FILLED WITH LOVE. We were a family and we had eachother.........we had sober parents, loving/caring, God loving parents. They made it work.....they had to for us. Our best christmas.....connecticut hill, in a broken down trailor....with a cloud hanging from the ceiling. That is part of my life. I saw my roots over the past week, and how much God took care of my parents and provided for us. I saw how blessed I am to not worry about things financially.....the conditions I saw people living in was so depressing and SHOCKING.

Why am i saying all this....because this life is exactly that. This life. Without it we are nothing. We can make it what we want. Or we can accept things for the way they are and never change or decide that change is best. this life can give us the best news ever on one day and then give us the worst diagnosis the next. I love this life....but my heart hurt today.,......and it ached with the most heaviest burden for this patient. I cannot even imagine what it would be like to hear that diagnosis and then be expected to move forward. But, you know....God knows what he's doing. He gives and he takes away....and at the same time.....he teaches others. Like me. Today, I felt the loss of my brother all over again...but it was for only a moment.....and then it left me. But I could relate to this patient...in some way...knowing that death hurts....and it hurts family....and it hurts after you've Lost someone you love.....In all sincereity.....i took her hand and looked in her eyes....and felt her pain. My heart broke.